I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

I had no courage.

It’s been a month, it’s the time I waiting for.

I spending time day by day full of suffering, but when the time is come, all the plan I made, all the things I wanna tell him, Every-single-world that I keep for this time, but I don’t have any courage for do that. I can’t start a chat. I’m afraid if he will ignore me. I’m afraid afraid and afraid. It’s always happen when I have plan to do / say something that need many of courage. This shiiit always happen.

I don’t wanna live in wishful thinking, not anymore.

I have many question for asking

I have many confession that I want to say.

But where all the courage I have?

I am the type of person who always waiting

I have enough patient

You know, I think it’s better to being alone, when I feel so bad

I want to finish this!!!

Aku ingin keluar dari semua ini, but I lose part of my self.

Masalahnya adalah, aku gak bisa mnghandle diriku sendiri, aku tau apa yang ku inginkan tapi tidak bisa melakukannya.

Come on Ris, what’s wrong with ‘start a chat first?’

I don’t know

I just wanna wait.

But I really really tired.

I wanna fix this

I don't wanna feel this anymore, I am suffering

what an idiot woman